Welcome to my struggle bus. All I can say is that, while my mouth says I’m ready to make necessary changes, my mind is not quite on board. I am all over the place when it comes to my health journey. Some days I’m all about it but then there are the days when it’s tough for me just to get off the couch.

Truth is, I’m not a very good self-motivator. And, even after my dr.’s visit, where my blood pressure is sky high, my weight just keeps going up and my energy levels are down, it still isn’t enough to get me to go all in. You know that saying, “Your body can stand almost anything. It’s your mind you have to convince”? I’m having a hard time convincing my mind that exercising and making better food choices are going to make a world of difference in the way I feel.

So, while I’m convincing my mind to work on the food choices, I could at least get the exercise goals out of the way. I’ve been a member of a local gym for 5 years. I think I’ve been maybe a total of two months? I walked in last month and said I need a trainer. They didn’t even need to sell it to me. Having a trainer is quite the cost, especially since I now have one three times a week for the next 6 months. Expensive? Heck, yeah. Worth it? Hell, yeah.

It is definitely helping me to make scheduled appointments with my trainer and I like having someone telling me what to do, when to do it, and how much to do. Also, the encouragement I get from him helps tremendously. This is spilling over into my food choices. I don’t want to waste my time and money on exercising if my food choices are not in line. Abs are made in the kitchen, not the gym.

My mind is slowly getting the idea that food is fuel and not for comfort. And it’s ok to spend the time and money to eat the better food options. Am I perfect in my choices? No. But that’s because I’m a work in progress.

After all these years of taking care of everyone else, it’s time to take care of myself.